经过很多感情的伤害，虽然都很伤心，但没有一次想这次那么难受、那么痛、还想要自杀。。
就算是哭了几次都没有办法挥发掉心中的不舍。就算是约会了其他几个男人，也没有办法把他代替。
只能说这是一场刻骨铭心的爱情，但唯独不能白头偕老。
Tuesday, May 26, 2015
Sunday, March 8, 2015
痛，累，苦
身心很累但不想休息，提不起劲做任何事。是身体问题还是心理问题？可能心里有答案但不想去面对。因为我没有解决的方法。
感觉很辛苦，很无力。很难受但哭不出来。越想向前走却越停留在过去。逼着自己向前但更是痛苦。我有在努力放下，但越是努力，越痛。
Sunday, February 15, 2015
So tired
真的不能自己一个人静下来，想你的心会非常痛苦，傻傻想要自杀的念头还是会浮现。如果已经不想再联络，为何还联系着？如果已经不想继续，为何还存在？好痛好痛好痛！
The pain in me is intolerable. Let go let go let go! Is the constant reminder I gave myself. But that doesn't mean your heart listens to what your brain commands. Everyone knows it very well but they just like to give you the "politically / socially / morally" correct answer. It's easier said than done. Hadn't that sense been knock into your mind that not all the relationship can be walk off easily? And not everything can be handled rationally? If humans all follows through their life only with rational, this world is a world of robots then. I know all of you meant well, but this it. This is why psychiatrist exist, why love exists.
Sunday, February 1, 2015
Saturday, January 24, 2015
Karma
Dear Dad, not that I don't love you as a family but I truly believe you will lead a long life like your father as karma needs to find its way to you.
I hope I'll live a short enough life, for the instant karma is enough.
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