14 August 2013, 11.54pm

Dear diary~

Met up with Kenny today. We went for dinner followed by a stroll, and then at a junction, I looked at him and he knew exactly what I wanna ask. It's the same old question : "what am I to you?".

And he know the reason why I asked that question, without me saying in the first place. 

We had a heart to heart talk, we had known each other for 7 months but it felt like we have know each other for a longer time. Throughout the talk, we went through the same things like he wants to focus on work and looking out to overseas opportunity. And I realized, and I told him too, that his current planning for the future does not include me. This saddens me quite abit, the feeling is heart wrenching. 

A guy that I felt feeling was right is never ready, guys out there who is ready to take care of me, waiting for me to say yes, are out there. There was no deadline for his pursuit in career, there was no end, so there's isn't a time where he will say "its time to focus on other things". Endless waiting and endless rejections to others. To wait or to hold? 

hazel, with love~

13 August 2013, 12.53am

Met up with Francis today for the movie The Conjuring. 

He gave me a stalk of pink rose, since it's the Chinese Valentine Day - 七夕

Well, given the scary level of the show, it brought us closer together, I mean physically. But after the show, I tried to shun away. After dinner, we chatted and it seems like he wanted to confess, in a way, but I told him not to say anything. 

Alright, I don't want to face the question for now. I was thinking, if it was Kenny who is doing the same thing, will I accept like immediately? 

I told Francis clearly that I don't want to start off with the attitude of "let's try", cos if it doesn't work out, it turns awkward. I want to start off a relationship where I know it's gonna last, or lets say, believe that it will last long. We still doesn't know each other well enough I think. 

This situation puts me into emo mode again. Or maybe I'm just tired :)

Good night hazel, rest your brain well, so that it can think better :) 

hazel, with love~

5 August 2013, 1pm

I think I need to blog more! As compared to when I just started (again). The target was to blog almost everyday. A diary, and a record to my life.

It's a short short working week, 2 days, hahas, cause I'm taking leave this Wednesday. Continuing my busy schedule.

Tonight meeting Benjamin Foo, ex classmate. Imagine the meet up later and guess it will be kind of awkward. But who cares? Just treat it as catch up session ^^

Tomorrow will be movie date with Francis Chew, online friend and Wednesday, Kristin's pre-wedding shoot. Can't imagine what she's up to, just try my best to make the best out of it! :D My DEAR friend getting married!! I must participate as much as I can! 

Thursday duty at ACP, night dinner at Bukit Timah - the hungry ghost fest, Friday & Saturday to Malaysia and Sunday work! 

That's it for this week! Monday on off-in-lieu, gotta go pray to my Grandma's 100 days. 3 months passed, it's so fast. 

Mr K out for holiday at BKK and Phuket. So boring, nobody to text around with LOL

I've promised Kristin to post some pictures of the guys I've mentioned. Too confusing for her, let me get the chance to post them ya! Hahas 

Another note before I end off: I guess I love SG so much, I have been going away on National Day for last year and this year, wahahaha! 

hazel, with love~