Cheers

After the whole day of crying and the feeling of calmness, I manage myself with his voice. Perhaps I'm too used to him, but no matter what, letting go at once is downright impossible.

I thanked him for understanding me, understanding my insanity. Being with me whenever I need a shoulder. Whenever I need the calmness. He went back to Malaysia yesterday just for a short break. Continuing the long journey of work life after that in Singapore.

That's all about the updates I believe. I shall live my life as usual, as what it may seem to be.

Dear friends:

I'm sorry for not speaking out. Not that it is inconvenient but for me, I would rather speak out only after everything has calmed down so the tears won't flow when I talked about it. Also, everyone moved forward, everyone has their own life. I shouldn't disturb anyone from their life just for the sake of my problem.

Hope you all will understand. This wound would slowly heal and I will still persevere on. I'm not letting go of what I fight for so easily.

Cheers.

The Calmness

Today went on with even more crying. The simplest bit can make me spend a few minutes crying. Or even nothing. Doing my paperwork and suddenly I have to stop to cry out. This took place for more than once in a 3 hour period.

Luckily I managed to listen to his voice. His voice calms me down, makes me stop crying, makes me feels better.

Anyone could understand the terrible feeling within? Anyone ever felt the calmness that (simply) a voice could bring about?

If time is really what we need, I'm willing to wait. If fate is what we lack, I pray to God to be gracious to spare us more.

Let him go

1 minute silence... For the death of a relationship fought hard by both.

Within 24 hrs, everything well off. My parents and grandma confronted him. For the best being of everyone, including me and both our family, we agreed to let go.

I spent the next few moments crying out loud, crying my heart out. But that didn't help get him out of my mind. With every teardrop, I miss him more, I get more frighten for the future. The more tears that came down brings about more that is coming.

We promise to be strong, we promise to take good care of ourselves. I don't know whether I can do it without him around. This feeling is bad.

Have you ever tried this? Two person who truly love are not able to be together.

When things are still fine, I was about to share this show with everyone. And now, I could include it suitably here.

The show titled "Away from her" with a simple summary of

"Sometimes you have to let go of what you can't live without."

Quote of Life

Chance upon this Quotation of the day at my Monster Blog!

It's one that have to be here! It's one that I acknowledge.


"Love may be or it may not, but where it is, it ought to reveal itself in its immensity."

– Honore de Balzac (1799-1850)

Confession

I miss someone sometime back and tonight. I know its a betrayal.

I wish for your happiness and bright future.

The War

Its a long time since the previous blog post. So what had happened in between?

We didn't manage to let go of each other, we are still holding on tightly. The break up didn't last long before the passion comes alive again.

However, like what I've mentioned in the second post, this relationship didn't get the blessing of the two important person in my life, and now its three. They strongly disapprove with the method of forcing the separation of the two of us. Scoldings and threatenings filled our life. Threatenings that I feared. Scoldings that had made me numbed.

We are fighting a war, fighting for happiness, I'm facing the unhappy important person everyday, I'm lost and no one could teach me a way. No one gave us a chance, one more chance, to try.

To the three important person of my life who disapprove: Seeing your unhappiness makes my heart hurt much. I only hope for your understanding and approval. Give us a chance to try once again.

*Facing this chaotic life makes me tired. I hope for a peaceful place, a peaceful world.