All was well till recently.. Really recently. On the eve of CNY eve, met up with Sam and we chatted till late again. Over coffee at Jurong. And in the end, we talked about what has happened a year ago and the happenings throughout this one year.
Then we met on CNY Day 2 night over drinks at Clarke Quay. Guess we have abit too much of a drink. Not that we went wayward but we chatted again through the night and kissed. Bad enough when you were just enjoying the process that everything just fell in place and everything feels right. It was not fooling around and not any sort of games. Something that I highlighted during the chat. It's weird how we are entangled since years ago and we are still entangled till now.
Maybe my heart has awoken. It felt "sour" and a little painful on Day 4, cos I simply slept through the whole of Day 3. Unlike the past 2+ years. This kind of sadness is a little different from what I felt with Kenny. Maybe the feelings are kind of different too. I didn't text much to Sam today, I think I have took a step back amidst the enjoyment of the process cos I doesn't want to sink, into something that's still ambiguous.
Other than these, CNY has been okay. Been driving around but I have valet services readily available right next to me - my father :D wasn't very smooth today though but well, there will be good and bad in life.
I'm supposed to meet up with Dan on Thursday and Kenny on Friday. May god bless and look after my actions and decisions.
hazel, with love~
