It didn't go away, even with new friends made, new potentials found. It lingers.

When you doesn't feel like going to bed and when tears rolled down voluntarily. When the sour sensation hits your heart. No matter how bright the smile was in the day, the night consumes you.

I felt like a Saturn sent to test the faith of His beloved followers. And He is the winner, through the many years that had past, and He will be for the many years to come.

What is the rule of nature? The rule of the world? I probably misunderstood totally. When do I let go? When can I let go? Let go for the minute for the pain to come back double in the next? It hurts badly. I feel empty. The many responsibilities versus the heart's content. What's one's choice? 

With Love,

hazel 

人性本善还是人性本恶？

你相信人性本善还是人性本恶呢？

是否还记得小时候书本总会教导我们 “人之初，性本善”？大多数的人都可能不会否认人性一开始是善。就拿刚出生或是不懂事的孩子来说，他们根本没带着怨恨来到这个世界，而且还带着天使般温柔，天真无邪的心来到这里。无可否认，他们刚开始的却是天使的化身。

但是，大奸大恶之人也是从一个天真无邪的孩子开始他们人生的旅程。

看似无辜又可怜的小人类为何会变成我们现在身边狡猾，冷血，残酷，心存恶念的某些人？

还是应该相信人性本恶？所谓三岁定八十，年幼的儿童就不说了。从小孩懂得分辨，懂的要求，他们就开始谋算，撒娇，为了达到想要的哭哭闹闹，做出一些行为。

人类也是动物的另一种，只是更聪明，懂得生火，搞科技，更厉害谋算，计较，怕吃亏。长大了的人类为了生存，为了糊口，为了私人利益，可以勾心斗角，陷害他人，陷入口舌之争。就因如此，人类的国度需要管理，制度，社会唆掰，宗教信仰与教诲来领导着每个人，克制着人类的邪恶。但是原本大自然的定律，根本不需要这些。

到底为什么要创造出那么复杂的人类，让他们违反大自然的定律，然后显露出人类丑陋的一面？

相比之下，人类比一些食肉兽还要恐怖。

The Furthest Distance In The World 。世界上最遥远的距离

“The Furthest Distance In The World”

The furthest distance in the world
Is not between life and death
But when I stand in front of you...
Yet you don’t know that I love you

The furthest distance in the world
Is not when I stand in front of you
Yet you can’t see my love
But when undoubtedly knowing the love from both
Yet cannot be together

The furthest distance in the world
Is not being apart while being in love
But when plainly cannot resist the yearning
Yet pretending you have never been in my heart

The furthest distance in the world
Is not but using one’s indifferent heart
To dig an uncrossible river
For the one who loves you

Rabindranath Tagore (7 May 1861 – 7 August 1941)

世界上最遥远的距离

世界上最遥远的距离
不是 生与死
而是 我就站在你面前 你却不知道我爱你
...

世界上最遥远的距离
不是 我就站在你面前 你却不知道我爱你
而是 明明知道彼此相爱 却不能在一起

世界上最遥远的距离
不是 明明知道彼此相爱 却不能在一起
而是 明明无法抵挡这股想念
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里

世界上最遥远的距离
不是 明明无法抵挡这股想念
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
而是 用自已冷漠的心 对爱你的人
掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠

If anyone could have understood the feelings between me and Samuel, it will only be the two of us. No matter what other comments may be, they weren't the ones being in the position, mind and thoughts of ours. I truly believe there is a connection between us that no one else will understand. And I don't seek for others' understanding too.

The above poem was posted by me in English and Samuel posted it in Chinese. It truly depicts the feelings we had for each other. There was a time, many decades ago, someone has been through the exact same thing before.

Could it be our past life? You never know...

With love,
hazel soh