Love Me

This is the first blog for this post - 27 July 2008,

And I'm facing a rough patch of life. No one could teach me what to do. And no one understood.

I had become alone, far away from the person in the past. I'm moving towards a much different future. I have gone into hiding, not meeting any good friends of the past. I do hope I could turn to them when I need a shelter. But everyone has their own life. No one will be able to spend all their time on me. Or in another way, I don't wish to bother others about my problems or worry about me.

Come on, time to start for this blog.

When we are younger, we believe in fairytales. When we hit adolescent, we started to get in touch with reality and as such adopting our own philosophies and deny the others. These philosophies or which may be called "principles" do change every now and then, but one could not be blamed for this. As at different stages of life, we meet with different encounters, different people, different happiness and different sadness. And all these changed us.

One of the philosophies that I have adopted when I'm younger is that, everything will come to you if it is destined to be yours. After much encounters, the confusion of this philosophy with the other "fight for your happiness!" occurs. Now, I adopted the latter.

People who had known me well for the past few years (let's say maybe 3 to 5 years?) probably would comment that my life could be written into a novel or even made into a drama. And no one could believe that it can turn even more dramatic, because I myself could not believe.

I thought the worst had past, I've managed to be with him. But I forgot that maintaining a relationship, it is not only us that I have to consider about.

Remember those movies depicting the era where many could not be with the one they truly love and parents will decide for their children's betrothal? I thought after the revolution, this would never happen again (maybe only to those families with reputation, with big businesses).

And here I am facing with this - I would say a traditional thinking. Not that my parents had me betrothed to someone I don't know but they are stopping me with this guy. Statement by my father: "You could find someone else, its ok if you bring one boyfriend every 3 months for our approval." Oh gosh! Can you imagine being with different man every 3 months just like the change of season? Haha.. Greatest joke!

And now I'm stuck here, doesn't know what the future holds for us. I know he's trying to slowly convince my parents. I too hope everything will turn out fine. Maybe a deity could appear and pull us out of this scenario.

Walking down this road together, with a tinge of determination lesser, all efforts of the past will be gone.

Let’s end the first post of the day with a song many had heard before - Love Me

http://www.imeem.com/purpletira/music/0uSf-fB4/collin_ray_love_me/