Thursday, February 28, 2013
Saturday, February 23, 2013
领悟。执着
能够看得开周边的事物是好还是坏？
能看开所有事情是领悟还是可悲？
可悲在于得到了领悟却失去了执着
事情往往就是那么的耐人寻味，发生了，经历了，才觉得。。。
经历了、领悟了、亦累了，这就是四大皆空的由来吗？
是真正的放开、领悟，还是掩饰着执着？
能看开所有事情是领悟还是可悲？
可悲在于得到了领悟却失去了执着
事情往往就是那么的耐人寻味，发生了，经历了，才觉得。。。
经历了、领悟了、亦累了，这就是四大皆空的由来吗？
是真正的放开、领悟，还是掩饰着执着？
Friday, February 15, 2013
14 Feb 2013, 11.54pm Happy Valentines Day~
How's everyone's valentines day? I hope everyone had a good one :)
Nothing much for me, like my previous post about my previous years' V'Day wasn't celebrated, and similar for this year.
Plans were kind of messed up, many coordinating, many cancellation. Was supposed to meet up with Flex, but I've pushed him to his MJ session with his friend. Point 1: MJ session isn't easy to arrange. Point 2: I'm not having the special feel that I wanna spend today with him.
Tried to fix a catch up session with an ex colleague but cancelled it cos I couldn't make it in time.
Tried to arrange a dinner with Kenny but was cancelled due to his last minute work rush. He did text me again saying can meet but do not want to go crowded places. Reason being, he does not want to be seen by his friends that he's with a gal on Valentines Day. There was an encounter before that his friend saw us together and called out to him, but he didn't notice.
So much for his "not-wanting-to-commit". I can understand but was kinda taken aback today. I shrugged it off and replied "It's okay, we shall meet some other day".
Subsequently, I headed for Vivocity to just wander around. There was an offer to ask me out for a drink but I rejected. Just feeling like being alone.
This phrase came to me today too "Players are usually lonely on V'Day" Kind of true, bcos none is true ;) **oh! It rhymes perfectly!**
I think I'm considered a player probably, and I couldn't help it but would like to put this "player" term on Kenny. Probably he's not; Maybe it's me over-thinking. But who cares, I'm not in the best happy mood now.
Tonight's mood is more of, I wanna stay home and rest, and have time for my best valentine -- myself.
I love u, darling.
Nothing much for me, like my previous post about my previous years' V'Day wasn't celebrated, and similar for this year.
Plans were kind of messed up, many coordinating, many cancellation. Was supposed to meet up with Flex, but I've pushed him to his MJ session with his friend. Point 1: MJ session isn't easy to arrange. Point 2: I'm not having the special feel that I wanna spend today with him.
Tried to fix a catch up session with an ex colleague but cancelled it cos I couldn't make it in time.
Tried to arrange a dinner with Kenny but was cancelled due to his last minute work rush. He did text me again saying can meet but do not want to go crowded places. Reason being, he does not want to be seen by his friends that he's with a gal on Valentines Day. There was an encounter before that his friend saw us together and called out to him, but he didn't notice.
So much for his "not-wanting-to-commit". I can understand but was kinda taken aback today. I shrugged it off and replied "It's okay, we shall meet some other day".
Subsequently, I headed for Vivocity to just wander around. There was an offer to ask me out for a drink but I rejected. Just feeling like being alone.
This phrase came to me today too "Players are usually lonely on V'Day" Kind of true, bcos none is true ;) **oh! It rhymes perfectly!**
I think I'm considered a player probably, and I couldn't help it but would like to put this "player" term on Kenny. Probably he's not; Maybe it's me over-thinking. But who cares, I'm not in the best happy mood now.
Tonight's mood is more of, I wanna stay home and rest, and have time for my best valentine -- myself.
I love u, darling.
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
CNY 2013~!
Happy CNY!
CNY hasn't been that exciting. Day 1 was visiting, night got nothing to do so went with sis n bro-in-law to drinking and SHAKE at Flyer. Boring..
Day 2 - rot at home and take care of baby niece. Day 3 - MJ day at Jeanie's place.
What should I do tomorrow? Hmmm.. Probably a bit of exercise, I had ate too much recently. Very soon, I need to get back on routine. Control gal, you need discipline!
Been drinking much recently, and probably those usual romance sad songs had triggered the emotional part in me. Had a dream recently. It's ah fu again. I dreamt that he's getting married, guess he invited me? Or what was the occasion that we were being placed together. Could not remember much, the only thing I could recall is his look and smile. A smile that convey the message "Everything is alright, everything is fine. He's good and there's no hard feelings between us".
This isn't the first time I dreamt of him and having this feeling of being fine. Was it a subconscious thought of mine wanting his assurance or wanting to give myself an assurance?
I'm sorry but I've put myself back to the game. Flings, drinking, late nights and playing around. Only that there's not as much flings now.
Aside to Kenny, still, no commitment. But I felt the concern he has for me. Worried that I'll be taken advantage of when going drinking but not to a point of possessive that restricted me going out. Well, it's he who do not want commitment. And likewise, he can't look for it in me. I told him I'm looking forward to something that he's aren't ready to give.
So, not much improvement for this. Valentines Day is coming, I hasn't really been celebrating this occasion, as in the past, ah fu usually has to work. This year, see what's gonna happen. But I guess nothing much probably.
A few songs that I'm listening recently, sad song definitely:
- Láng Nghe Nouc Mát - Mr Siro (Vietnam)
- 最幸福的事 - 锺家欣 (Cantonese)
- 一个人 - 叮当
Continue dreaming darling, it could be the best moment that can fulfill almost everything.
CNY hasn't been that exciting. Day 1 was visiting, night got nothing to do so went with sis n bro-in-law to drinking and SHAKE at Flyer. Boring..
Day 2 - rot at home and take care of baby niece. Day 3 - MJ day at Jeanie's place.
What should I do tomorrow? Hmmm.. Probably a bit of exercise, I had ate too much recently. Very soon, I need to get back on routine. Control gal, you need discipline!
Been drinking much recently, and probably those usual romance sad songs had triggered the emotional part in me. Had a dream recently. It's ah fu again. I dreamt that he's getting married, guess he invited me? Or what was the occasion that we were being placed together. Could not remember much, the only thing I could recall is his look and smile. A smile that convey the message "Everything is alright, everything is fine. He's good and there's no hard feelings between us".
This isn't the first time I dreamt of him and having this feeling of being fine. Was it a subconscious thought of mine wanting his assurance or wanting to give myself an assurance?
I'm sorry but I've put myself back to the game. Flings, drinking, late nights and playing around. Only that there's not as much flings now.
Aside to Kenny, still, no commitment. But I felt the concern he has for me. Worried that I'll be taken advantage of when going drinking but not to a point of possessive that restricted me going out. Well, it's he who do not want commitment. And likewise, he can't look for it in me. I told him I'm looking forward to something that he's aren't ready to give.
So, not much improvement for this. Valentines Day is coming, I hasn't really been celebrating this occasion, as in the past, ah fu usually has to work. This year, see what's gonna happen. But I guess nothing much probably.
A few songs that I'm listening recently, sad song definitely:
- Láng Nghe Nouc Mát - Mr Siro (Vietnam)
- 最幸福的事 - 锺家欣 (Cantonese)
- 一个人 - 叮当
Continue dreaming darling, it could be the best moment that can fulfill almost everything.
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