CNY 2013~!

Happy CNY!

CNY hasn't been that exciting. Day 1 was visiting, night got nothing to do so went with sis n bro-in-law to drinking and SHAKE at Flyer. Boring..

Day 2 - rot at home and take care of baby niece. Day 3 - MJ day at Jeanie's place.

What should I do tomorrow? Hmmm.. Probably a bit of exercise, I had ate too much recently. Very soon, I need to get back on routine. Control gal, you need discipline!

Been drinking much recently, and probably those usual romance sad songs had triggered the emotional part in me. Had a dream recently. It's ah fu again. I dreamt that he's getting married, guess he invited me? Or what was the occasion that we were being placed together. Could not remember much, the only thing I could recall is his look and smile. A smile that convey the message "Everything is alright, everything is fine. He's good and there's no hard feelings between us".

This isn't the first time I dreamt of him and having this feeling of being fine. Was it a subconscious thought of mine wanting his assurance or wanting to give myself an assurance?

I'm sorry but I've put myself back to the game. Flings, drinking, late nights and playing around. Only that there's not as much flings now.

Aside to Kenny, still, no commitment. But I felt the concern he has for me. Worried that I'll be taken advantage of when going drinking but not to a point of possessive that restricted me going out. Well, it's he who do not want commitment. And likewise, he can't look for it in me. I told him I'm looking forward to something that he's aren't ready to give.

So, not much improvement for this. Valentines Day is coming, I hasn't really been celebrating this occasion, as in the past, ah fu usually has to work. This year, see what's gonna happen. But I guess nothing much probably.

A few songs that I'm listening recently, sad song definitely:
- Láng Nghe Nouc Mát - Mr Siro (Vietnam)
- 最幸福的事 - 锺家欣 (Cantonese)
- 一个人 - 叮当

Continue dreaming darling, it could be the best moment that can fulfill almost everything.